Saturday, December 31, 2011

Dear Bob and Dolvett,

You don't know me yet, which I can assure you is a loss on all our parts.  Don't get me wrong...I'm not conceited, I'm a lot of fun to be around.  I just want you to know that as much as I think I need you, I am not without something to bring to the plate.

I think you are both amazing men, which goes without saying...I mean...I dedicated an entire blog to reaching out to you and recapping Season 14.

Season 14 is really important to me.  Its the first season that I auditioned for the Biggest Loser.  I stood in line for hours in not one, but in two cities in 7 days. (St. Louis and Chicago)  I didn't make it obviously, which was a huge blow to me because despite all the positive messages from Holland and Kerry (casting agents) I walked out of there feeling like I failed at the one thing I was good at without really trying...being fat.

Turns out I was wrong...after blogging my weight and weight loss struggles for over two years, successfully completing two 5ks from May to June (2011), and losing 30 lbs since September of 2010...I spiraled out of control and as it turns out...I am still REALLY good at being fat.  Good to the tune of gaining all the weight I lost back.

Don't get me wrong...I'm not blaming this situation on not being selected, there were a lot of bad things that happened to me this year.  I was laid off from my job of nearly 8 years.  I have been unable to find another.  I put too much hope in the thought that the Biggest Loser Ranch was where I needed to be...everything bad was now making sense...this was my destiny.  Wah wah wah (bad game show music.)

It's ok though.  I'm still alive and I am still breathing which means that I can pick myself up and start from here.    I thought I was going to join the Biggest Loser Club and then I found out that I have to "electronically sign" a waiver that states I'm not diabetic...but I am so....that's out the window.  Not that you are in charge of that or that you can do anything about it, but it seems unfortunate that the show helps people with diabetes, but there is no "diabetic option" for the Club, but I digress.  I was going to send my butt to The Biggest Loser Resort at Fitness Ridge for a month to get a good head start, but with no job, $10,000 on "fat camp" is not realistic.

The point of all this is that I am going to follow along this season and do what I can to lose the weight and push further than I ever have before...all while critiquing the season and your every move.  MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAH (evil laugh)

Until Next Time,

Biggie Bloggerson